Best friends are far and few... But a friend like this, is one in a million!

So... I had a discussion with a very dear friend recently. And I was thinking about her tonight and how wonderfully wonderful she is! She was and is and will forever be my very best friend I could ever ask for!

But while I sat and pondered about her.. I thought of how surreal growing up really is. This friend was an answer to my many fervent prayers. and for the 5 years since then, she has continued to be the answer I needed many of times.

You always have those "best friends" in high school that you spend every second of every day either with them or texting them.. and those kind of friends are always very fun, but from experience, they fade. Things change, life happe

ns, and for one reason or another you can't be with them 24/7, so they move on, and lets be honest, so do you... And thats why this friendship has always been so special to me and so unique.. Of course we had times when we spent a lot of time together. Mostly in middle school when we were both loners and had no other friends.... But as we progressed through high school our life and interests changed. I got into running a she got into soccer.... We went our seperate ways, but when I was around her, it was as though things had never changed! And without fail she was ALWAYS there when I needed a favor... Always there when I was having a hard time.... Always there when I needed a foot massage after a long race, or help making Student council posters and getting high when I procrastinated until the night before..

I had a much different friend then your typical high school fair weather friends.. I had a 3rd sister! We went through a lot together.. and I must admit, she was a much better friend than I was... But i'm grateful that she's forgiving and loves me anyways!

I know what you may be thinking.. "your husband is always suppose to become your best friend", but I'm talking besides that, Cause lets face it, you gotta have someone to vent to about those darn men!! haha but a Husband is a long ways away for a little soul like me... But for my best friend Olivia "Irving" Clayton (Watts) on the other hand.. not so much. She is getting married in just over 2 months! Words cannot express how overwhelmingly overjoyed I am! I am so happy for her and I must say, though I would never admit it to his face, I approve of Justin very much so. He is exactly what she deserves, and she deserves the best!

I'm kinda ranting... haha sorry this blog probably wont make sense to anyone but me, and maybe Olivia.. haha but even she might not get it.. Basically what I am trying to say is that I love her! Its a bitter sweet feeling to watch her go off and get married! More sweet than bitter.. Sometimes I wish we never grew up and we could stay those same dorky girls sitting in the front bench of the middle school! I'm so glad that no matter how spread out we get, how ever long we go without talking, she will always be my best friend, and I love her for that! :D

Life really does get ahead of you.

Wow, I am amazed how long it has been since my last post! What have I been up too you ask? Oh you know, just figuring out lifes toughest obsticals. But haven't we all? I've been laughing at times and struggling at others. Loving those in need and being loved in times of need...

I feel as though its just been one of those years.. I feel like I am heading out of 2011 crawling on my hands and knees.... But I know that I've been knocked down to be built up stronger. I know I have fallen to learn the pain of stumbling and the knowledge of being able to get back up. I most of all know, that with the Lords help, I will stand as tall, and taller, then I did before this. And I will look back on these times and trials, through out all of eternity, and see those loving hands of my Heavenly Father carrying me when I felt so alone.

I'm so scared for the future. I'm so scared for the unknown.. There as so many things so very near in my future that I have no idea about, and it scares me, to death. Decisions scare me,making them scares me even worse. But I will not face it alone.. What ever life has to throw at me, I have made a new determination to face it with my Heavenly Father right by my side. He is that constant, unchanging factor in my life I KNOW will always be there... Despite all the "unknowns", he is the one "known" thing in my life that I am so sure of. So with that said, I have decided to make a much more diligent effort at growing closer to my Heavenly Father in mind, Body, and Spirit. I still have a lot of unkowns, a lot of things to figure out, and a lot of unanswered questions. But through him who gives me strength, I can do all things.